Wednesday, 2 September 2015

Anger



Thank you all for being understanding with me while I was sick and trying to catch up on my writing

“What the fuck Taylor” Dom hissed and I knew him calling me Taylor meant I was in trouble, it never happened.

“I trusted you but yet you fucking lied to me, you knew this whole time!” I yelled at him but all he did was grabbed me by the wrist and drag me inside to prevent me from making a scene to his neighbours.

“What are you on about Taylor? We’ve barely spoken and then you turn up at my house and slap me”

“I just had the talk with Jake to find out everything in hopes that maybe we could fix what we had but I also found out that you knew about him chasing girls down at the bar. I asked you if you knew if he was cheating on me but you said no”

“Tay I never said that, what I said was like I would tell him like you were” I stared at him remembering that message, he was right, he never once said Jake wasn’t cheating on me.

I leaned back against the wall and closed my eyes, I don’t know why I expected Dom to tell me the truth, he was protecting both of us.

“Tay I didn’t want to get caught in the middle” the softness of his voice shocked me and when I opened my eyes he was standing directly in front of me.

The shocks continued as he softly cupped my face and stroked my cheek with his thumb, “you can’t hold this against me Tay he’s my best friend and I care about you, I didn’t want to lose either one of you”

“If he’s your best friend why did you let me cheat on him?”

“It doesn’t matter Tay, that’s between Jake and I but you and I is something different….” I looked up at Dom as he trailed off, I didn’t know what he was trying to say but it was just adding more confusion to everything that is going on.

“Dom what are you trying to say?” I questioned and watched as the look on his face softened, he didn’t say anything he just leaned forward and kissed me.

Him kissing me was different to what it has been between us previously, it was soft and careful and I hated myself for enjoying it. I leaned up and wrapped my arms around his neck gripping his hair with my fingers.

He pulled away and I was surprised when a soft whimper escaped, he nuzzled my neck and his breath felt hot on my neck.

“I’m trying to say that our arrangement meant more than it should of” he spoke and I wished more than anything that he was looking at me so I could see his face, I wanted to know if he was lying or messing with me or serious.

Could he be serious? When we broke up it was mutual, we both agreed we didn’t work as a couple so why was he agreeing to us trying that again.

“Dom…” I didn’t know what else to say, this just added more to my plate that I didn’t want right now.

“No hear me out Tay, I get it we didn’t work back then but we are in a different place now. We’ve gotten to know each other better over the last couple of years, we could work Tay and you can’t tell me you didn’t feel anything with that kiss”

“There’s so much going on Dom, and Jake, god Jake will realise what is happening and will work out it was you I was seeing behind his back”

Dom placed his hands on my face and shook his head, “no, what happens between Jake and I is none of your concern”

“Why do you keep saying that?”

“Because it doesn’t matter, Tay I want you, I want to work on a relationship with you” this time when he kissed me it was slightly rougher, more what I was used to and I was glad it felt normal.

I left Dom’s not long after that and headed to Emily’s in a daze, even when I got there and found her sitting on the couch with a tub of Ben and Jerry’s she took one look at me before offering me her spoon.

“What happened Tay?” she questioned and I walked over before grabbing her spoon and the tub.

I was silent for a couple of minutes eating the ice cream before launching into the full story of what happened at both Jake and Dom’s.

“Woah, so they both want a relationship with you?” Emily questioned when I finished telling her the story.

“Pretty much” I shrugged.

“Pick Dom” I choked on the ice cream and Emily laughed. “Come on, it’s not that hard of a choice Tay, you prefer the sex with Dom over Jake and there’s something about you and Dom that’s different to you and Jake”

“What do you mean?”

“There’s just something electrifying about you and Dom when the two of you are together, I’ve had Sarah and Penny ask questions about the two of you”

I stared at Emily not 100% where she was going with this and now I wonder what exactly Sarah and Penny knew about the whole situation or if they assumed Dom and I should be together instead of Jake and I.

“Tay I know you’ve got a lot going on but if you do have to decide between the two of them pick whoever makes you happy and you won’t have to make any compromises.”

I didn’t say anything to Emily I just handed her the ice cream before getting up and heading to the room where I was staying, I couldn’t even begin to comprehend the thought of having to pick between Dom and Jake or should I just cut my loses completely and not pick either one of them
I pulled my phone out of my purse and decided to see what messages I had heard come through while I was talking with Emily, some of them were work related emails and the rest were a mixture of messages from both Jake and Dom.

Jake: I’m so happy we’re going to work on things baby, I know you said a break would be best and I will do what it takes to win you back.
Jake: I love you so much Tay, please don’t ever forget that.

Dom: I meant what I said Tay, I want to try and make a relationship work between the two of us again. We are in a better place.
Dom: let me prove it to you Tay, let me take you out on a date, let me show how we can work better this time around.

I placed my phone down not even wanting to deal with this right now, I knew I had to at one point but was this something I wanted?

9 comments:

  1. Team Dom!!! He gives her what she wants in bed and thats huge!!! Jake admitted he can't so that will always be a big issue.

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  2. So glad you're back!! You are one of my favorites!

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  3. Yay so glad you're back!! And I agree!! Go for Dom! Being unsatisfied or at least not getting what you want/enjoy during sex is a huge issue and if Jake can't or won't do it you'll be right back here in this same situation soon enough. Plus.. who is to say he won't stop cheating too since he loves the chase? Dom seems like a 1 woman guy.

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    1. Thank you, I would have returned soon enough and everyone seems to be team Dom, it's interesting

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    2. Opps! Didnt mean to double post yesterday. I swear my phone is possessed lol. You can delete the other if you want. :)

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  4. Yay so glad you're back!! And I agree!! Go for Dom! Being unsatisfied or at least not getting what you want/enjoy during sex is a huge issue and if Jake can't or won't do it you'll be right back here in this same situation soon enough. Plus.. who is to say he won't stop cheating too since he loves the chase? Dom seems like a 1 woman guy.

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