The Truth Comes Out

It had been a couple of days since Dom returned from his business trip and our conversation, I was surprised neither of us tried anything since he was gone for three weeks but I didn’t question it since we did need to talk about what would happen if Jake found out the truth.

I had a lot to think about, I needed to talk to Jake and find out everything and I needed to decide if I wanted to work things out and if I did, I needed to tell him the truth but I hadn’t decided yet.

In the end I decided I couldn’t keep ignoring Jake, I pulled out my phone to give him a call.

“Hey Tay” he answered, he sounded cheerful and I hoped it was because I was calling and not because of something else.

“Hi, listen I think we should talk”

He was quiet for a minute and I didn’t know what to expect, “yes of course, listen baby you know I love you and I’m really sorry”

“Jake…” I cut him off, not wanting to hear more of what I already have. “How about I come over and we’ll order in so we can talk, I don’t want to do it over the phone”

“Yeah, I guess. I will see you later baby, I love you” he sounded so dejected at my idea of talking later, I thought he would have been pleased at the idea of me finally wanting to talk to him but I guess not.

“I’ll be by later Jake” it was all I said, he replied okay and he sounded even more dejected, was it because I didn’t say I love you back?

I still loved him but I didn’t want him to know, I didn’t want him to know there might be a chance that I might forgive and take him back.

I made it through the rest of the day keeping myself busy from trying to imagine a billion different ways things could go tonight and I was currently standing in the guest room of Emily’s trying to find the right outfit.

“Are you sure you’re doing the right thing Tay?” I looked over at where Emily was sitting on the bed packing up her make-up supplies.

“I don’t know, there is a part of me that can’t deal with the thought of losing him but then there is another part that doesn’t want anything to do with him and all of this aside I have to keep remembering that I was cheating on him as well and before I decide what happens I have to tell him the truth”

“What about Dom?” Emily raised an eyebrow at me, it was the one thing she couldn’t work out, why would Dom let me cheat on Jake and it was something I didn’t get either.

“He just said to tell him I was having sex with someone else, don’t have to tell him who” I finally found the dress I was looking for, it was light blue, strapless, showed a little cleavage and a lot of leg but was also comfortable enough that I could spend the night on the couch in it if we were up all night talking.

“I still question the friendship between those two, it doesn’t make sense that Dom will have sex with you and willingly hurt his best friend”

“You and me both Em” I agreed with her before pulling on the dress and picking up my nude pumps.

“You look hot and if you don’t come home tonight I will be banging on the door until you answer it and come home” she winked at me causing me to laugh, she grinned at me before leaving heading back to her own room.

I believed her when she said that, it was something she would do and I would love to see the look on Jake’s face when Emily gave him a piece of her mind. By my request Emily has stayed away from Jake and didn’t say anything until I figured out what I wanted to do but me not coming home would give her a reason to turn up there.

It felt weird knocking on the front door of my own house, but there was a part of me reminding me what happened when I entered without knocking and I couldn’t get those images out of my head of Jake and that other girl.

The door opened and Jake looked a little confused, “Tay you don’t have to knock, it’s your house as well”

I shrugged but didn’t say anything and walked past him to enter the house but I stopped in the hallway having no idea where I wanted to do this.

“Living room?” Jake suggested when he realised why I stopped, I just nodded at him before following him into the living room.

Even though Jake took a seat on the couch I walked over and took a seat on the arm chair, I knew it would be easier here where I wouldn’t have to feel the heat coming from his body if I sat close to him. I couldn’t help but notice the hurt that flashed through his eyes at this but I had to remember why I was here.

“I ordered your favourite pizza, it should be here soon enough Tay”

“Thanks…”

We both fell into a silence after that, I thought it was weird for Jake considering every moment we have spoken or I’ve run into him he tried to apologise over and over again but then again I yelled at him over and over again telling him I needed space.

“Listen Tay…” and here is the speech I was expecting to hear from him as soon as I got here but I couldn’t sit here and listen to him apologising for the same thing I was doing.

“No don’t Jake, I came here for a reason and just let me say what I want to” I cut him off and he looked at me like a wounded puppy…god how was he going to look once I said what I did.

I was expecting Jake to say something and ignore what I said but he just nodded and allowed me to continue.

“Look I’m not hurt over the fact that you were having sex, I’m hurt over the fact that it was in our bed, in our house Jake. You ruined what was ours”

“I know and I’m so sorry Tay, listen it was only once”

“Was it only once?” I questioned not knowing what to expect, I think a part of me was hoping that we were both in the wrong for just as long.

Watching Jake shift in his seat in silence made me worry, was it just once? Was I in the end going to hurt him by saying I was having sex with someone else behind his back.

“No, well it was only once in our bed. I want to fix things between us baby and if that means hurting you more by telling you the truth then I will, I want to fix things between us Tay I really do” he pleaded with me and the longer this went on the worse I was beginning to feel about it all.

I hung my head not knowing what to say, “Listen Jake, there’s a reason why I’m not hurt in the way you think I am. I was having sex with someone else as well…”

There was a look of shock on his face and his mouth open and closed a couple of times, I couldn’t read the emotions on his face and before any of us could say anything the doorbell rang indicating that the pizza was here.